"TearS" just for YOU

I like the word "TearS"..it start v T..for u Thousand..and end v S..for me Sharon
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you..i cry every single seconds cause of you !!

Never make someone a priority when all you are an option for them...It’s not up to me anymore. If you want me in your life, you’ll find your way to put me there...
I will chase you around for a while; but there’s going to be one day when I’m going to stop, I will get over you..

I feel sorry for the boy who broke my heart, because one day, he’re going to wake up and realize that he lose a girl who love him much..</3

Every night I talk to the stars pretending they’re you. Sadly, they’re too much like you – far away and they never answer my questions.....

I will forget the risk, take the fall...
If it’s meant to be, it’s worth it all...

My medicine

Has been discharged from hospital almost three weeks, now often have to go back Ipoh Specialist Hospital for referral and physical therapy, fell very tired. My body is getting better but still consider very weak, just hopes that can get better quickly n continue my study.  Every day just staying home do exercise, reading, online, swimming, physiotherapy and eat nasty medicine. Is damn boring !!!

Some of my medicine(for stomach n spine) (╥_╥)

                              

All the medicine is costly..1 of them cost RM100++..all my medicine is cost RM 600++ for referral only
>.< Ermmmmmmmm..Ipoh Specialist Hospital can consider is the most expensive private hospital..but all the doctor is skillful..facilities inside also nice n complete..

Take pills every day to maintain my body health, hate this feeling..but i'm no choice..more 2 weeks need get into hospital again for others checking..aRRRRRRRRR......(≧ω≦)......

:'(

Feel Tired

forgive me because I'm drowned in boredom n sick......

Want to blurt out everything because my mind can't stand the large data of life. Gotta find a place to store them like the pensive which is so useful in curing certain headaches. But still keep some of those headaches in the head so that my life is imperfect.

Sometimes, feel life just sucks, cried almost every single day, beat myself up, say that I'm useless.......then it just sink deeper and deeper. In the past, that was me, naive little child that couldn't even try to understand people and complained that life is not fair.

Now, I'm learning to toughen up myself like that someone that I truly respect. I'm never going to be as strong as that person, but I'll try my best to be strong and try to get over those dark memories in the past. Gotta move forward!!!


:))

Ending of our LOVE story

I know you may never read this, so it seems more like I am writing to myself. Although I am writing to reach you, I feel I cannot express my feelings for you. There are no words to describe the way I love for you. The depression eating away at my heart is only hidden by my fake smile that hides my true feelings. As my feelings fade to nothing I want you to know, you will always be held close in my heart. 

My words probably mean nothing to you, but I can tell you it is the sincere truth. Excuse me as my life slips into darkness and the fading thing I call light drifts away. U light me up n u push me into a darkness again. I feel heartbroken when i get know everything </3 Izzit i not enough good compare to others?

I cry for 1week cause u din't complete your missions that u promise to get back my broken heart..i waiting n waiting for many days..n u give me a shit ending love story answer~i get hurt much!!

I miss u right now..whatever hope u can live happily n i will keep our memory in my heart until the end =]